It was about a decade ago that I saw for the first time, a Master cause his slave to orgasm by shear control. It was right then and there that I determined that I too would master this level of control. That Master however was very coy about how he achieve this miracle and so I had to pilgrimage to find the answers.
Barbara Carrellas was a natural step in the evolution of what I would later master. Barbara had claimed that she could orgasm without external stimulation and she could teach others to do the same. So it was that I found myself in many of her workshops, and it is in one of those workshops something inexplicable happened to me.
We were seated around her as she guided us in mediation, perhaps 150 or maybe 200 of us. As I opened my chakras and energy flowed up my spine I was suddenly overcome with an emotional wave that I cannot to this day describe I can tell you that I wept and moaned quite loudly. In my physical mind I could see the thoughts coming and going and they were cautioning me to get hold of myself because this was a large group and I was being a disturbance and embarrassing. Another part of me took that voice and forcefully thrust in back down inside myself and said in a loud voice, NO!.. you need this. So I rode the wave. I wrung every last tear out that was offered up on this sacrificial moment. Barbara simply walked over, left a few tissues, and went back attending the class. In retrospect that was exactly what I needed. Like a slave entering subspace I didn’t need someone ripping me out of my head space to ask if I was OK.
Shortly after this experience I began to lead meditation sessions of my own, because I was very eager to explore deeper in this new realm. One interesting side note to this is that I can become quite high…without drugs.. just from engaging this head space at will. It was only a few years later that Izrina came into my life and I discovered that I could command her to orgasm as I had seen earlier. I have since demonstrated this many times in front of many people, nearly always with Izrina fully clothed.
I won’t go into the mechanics of how I get to this headspace.. that is better left to a private session. From time to time I still lead a Tantric meditation session in which couples experience sexual penetration, fully clothed. I should mention that these couples can be male/female or male/male or female/female.. BUT one person must accept the male role and one must accept the female role as the energy exchange involves thrusting and squeezing.
Funny story: In one such session, two women were partners and the more Dominant one chose to be the “male” in that session. When it was done she said in an surprised voice: “I had a penis”! then she added: “I didn’t like it”.
But all of this is just baking the cake. The real icing on this story is the most recent addition to my experiences with Tantra. Believe it or not, I have never combined Tantra with actual sex with Izrina.. or had not… until after her final collaring.
As I mentioned in an earlier blog, Izrina received a very nice S&M session after her collaring. So much so that she went into a deep subspace and had to be half carried – half walked to bed. It wasn’t until the next night that I could consummate her collaring with some good old fashioned sex – but for the first time ever – she also received Tantra mediation with the sex.
I won’t build up the story or go into explicit details but I will tell you this. Her reaction and orgasm was off the charts. Hey Mikey… I think she likes it!
Carpe Diem my friends.. go be someone’s great day.