One thing you will never hear Izrina say is: My Master is awesome! He’s just the best Master ever! She is never going to ever say that.
It’s not that I am not amazing and awesome.. I am. It’s just that she doesn’t use the word “my” very often. She might say, The Master I serve is awesome! He’s the best Master ever!
It may sound weird, this addiction I have for words. Understand that this is a thing that runs deeper than just playing with how we say a thing. It cuts to the core of something she can never think. She can not think that I am her’s. She can not think that she has some leverage over me. She can have no expectation of control over my wants or desires. I am not hers on any level. Even my Domination is not hers.. it is MY gift, to her.
She is MY property. She is there to serve and please me. If I stay late at a Dungeon as I often do, and she needs sleep because she must rise early to be at the barn, I might send her to the car to nap. I get chatting, and I love being in the center stage, so it can become hard to leave. I see her need for sleep though, and her need comes before what I want. IF I can manage both her need and my wants, I will. If you have not heard this before, these are the priorities of Ds in order
- The needs of the slave
- The needs of the Master
- The wants of the Master
- The wants of the slave
And what happens when a slave doesn’t like another slave and thinks that slave is cutting in on her territory? Let’s examine that question, shall we? Starting with “her territory”. I don’t have to go any further do I? You can see already where I would go with this. IF there is no.. “MY Master”, then there is no “my territory”. Izrina has jokingly said she’ll scratch the eyes out of any bitch who tries to cut in on the Master she serves, but she knows better than to say that in a serious tone. It amuses me.. as a joke..
I have a “thing” for playing with Raven Pup. It happened at the North East Power Exchange Competitions. Raven and I had a wonderful scene and the scene that Izrina was promised didn’t happen. There was drama afterward. It wasn’t jealousy per se. I won’t go into it but I am sure you can imagine where I stood on this.
Izrina gets it. She knows its my pleasure first. She knows that I am “the Master she serves”.. She would never dream of saying “My Master”…. hmmmm unless her SAM side broke out and she was looking for a beating (SAM = Smart Ass Masochist). Izrina is sisters with Raven. We talk from time to time about how she feels about Raven in my life. On the surface there appears to be no issues, but there is something else we must always be aware of.
A sidebar story about Izrina being a SAM: On one evening Izrina was giving me a little lip as she sometimes does when her SAM side breaks out. So I was all Dominant and having heard just about enough lip from her, I demanded in my most Dommly Dom voice..”Get your ass in the car now!” So she did… she turned around bent over and just stuck her ass in the car door. HA ha! I am fairly sure that every time she bounced in the saddle of her horse for the next week, she went.. chuckle..ow…chuckle.. ow! Bruises are a lovely way to remember the one you love!
When you DO find someone special and your life is freaking wonderful when you are with them, you can develop a fear of losing them. We know that living a life in the shadow of fear is self destructive but we often do it anyway. Fear has a way of creeping in, of convincing us that we are fools if we do not nurse fear. Fear is the dark whisper that calls you to the shadows and you know you should not go, but you sometimes do anyway.
The idea of love being limited and a commodity to be fiercely guarded is a concept that I don’t understand. ~ Slave_Shylah
When we live without fear, when we allow ourselves to love someone more than we need them, when we act as conduits for the endless love that can pour through us… then and only then can we an live up to this quote. It is easier to say than to do but it is also worth fighting to achieve. It starts with knowing that the person you are with truly loves you, that they will place no other above you, and that they are worthy of the trust you place in them.
Carpe Diem my friends.. Go be someone’s great day!